Friday, December 19, 2008

Lady with pretty eyes ...

I see her almost everyday at the bus stop. Well, days when I am not late ...

To say the least she's got very pretty eyes. She gets down one stop before mine. She mostly wears jeans and a tee-shirt ... and listens to FM on her silver color cellphone.

I manage to get into the same bus as she does. Most of the time. Whenever possible, I stare at her eyes. I mean stare, not just look once in a while. Well, I am kinda known for my 'staring' in friends circle. :-)

She didn't notice me for quite a few days ... But recently she did. Now once in a while she looks at me, sees that I am staring at her, she would immediately look down or somewhere else. This makes my journey to office very interesting :-)

I am very sure that she thinks of me as a creepy guy, who stares at her. And I have no problems with that.

I want to try this once: write 'Hi' on sheet of paper, and hold it, so that she can see it next time she looks back at me. I am not sure if I really have guts to do that, but it would be very interesting.

Monday, December 08, 2008

Monday, December 01, 2008

I should

Cyclist ...
get my camera, get out of city home, capture the world as best as possible...

Friday, November 28, 2008

A small dose

of reality was all that needed to keep me awake for the rest of the day ...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Friday, October 17, 2008

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

friends and enemies ..

I just found my biggest enemy!

My laziness!

But, since I am the reason for my laziness, can I safely say, that I am my biggest enemy?

Oh man, that's a lot of 'meta' thinking...

Wall street crisis ...

I've been following the 'Wall street meltdown' quite closely. What I mean by that is, I am reading lot of articles, and reports about the events happening there.

A lot of that makes no sense for me. It took a lot of difficulty to understand the 'Credit Default Swap', 'Sub prime mortgages' and investment banking in general. To be honest, still I've got a lot questions about them and can say quite confidently that I am still a noob in these subjects.

The remote possibility of me investing some bucks in stock market has just vanished! poof! just like that  :-)

But apparently this is a good time to invest, if you can pick your target carefully. 

I think the last sentence is full of oxymorons :-)

Monday, September 15, 2008

New York ...

Yellow taxis,
Pretty ladies ...

High-rise buildings,
Scary sirens ...

Careless bikers,
Beautiful parks ...

Cute pooches,
Yummy pizzas,

Silent nights ...

etc etc ....

That's pretty much what I have to say about that ...

Monday, September 08, 2008

Err... whatever .

So far, he has a set of rules. Which keeps getting updated every once in a while, just like a virus definition file. He knows exactly what to talk, how to behave, whom to ask. Everything premeditated, it's just a simple high-school drama. Every one knows the rules.

But not every day. Things might change, new people freak him out. New place puts across a different challenge. It keeps him busy.

He lives in a world of hopes and dreams.

Every one's personal life is a mess. Isn't it?

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Another random post ...

If I imagine myself, say 5 years down the line, I can't see anything exciting :-(

Probably would get double the pay I am getting right now ...
Probably would get married ...
If things go wrong, there might be couple of kids as well...

None of these are what I want ...

But what I want has been a mystery so far. No clue. Whatsoever :-(

Puzzle gets harder and harder everyday.

Change is harder, uncomfortable and basically unpleasant.

But nothing is impossible, they say...

So, I am going to give a try, I'll start by being honest to myself.

Oops, did I start with the toughest step?

Monday, August 25, 2008

There are ...

very few things that disgust me..

A messy apartment, and heaps of unwashed clothes are not on the top of that list ...

Friday, August 22, 2008

There are questions ...


-> Why do I blog?
-> Why do I send link of my blog to all possible people I find?
-> Why have I put my photo on the blog?
-> Why do I pester people by asking them to check my flickr photos albums?

Well, honestly, I hope that some day a pretty lady will get click these links, will read my blog and check the photos I clicked and will like them so much that we will end up having sex ... etc etc ...

So far, no luck.

Will keep y'all posted...

Now I am off to check the blog statistics.

P.S. Don't forget to check my flickr photo album.

Few clicks ...

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

The quote for the day ...

I have absolutely no right to express my opinions until I know all of the answers...
--Kurt Cobain...

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Monday, July 28, 2008

Waiting is the name of this game.

Waiting ...

It kind of struck to him, then and there.

It's all about choices. The choices he would take, or he wouldn't.

At once side, he could continue whatever he is doing right now, the safest option. Life would be simple, though satisfaction is not guaranteed.

Or he could try his hands at collecting the space and time inside the small little box. He is not good at it right now. But hey, things could become better.

On the other hand, he could go on to pursue higher knowledge, enlightenment and vision. He knows he wouldn't do that. Already. For some reason ...

Or there another world, where it's highly selfish, never care for anyone, anything but himself, may be sometime after not even himself.

Oh there are many ...

You see, we have options. Lots of them. None bad, or good or perfect. Just depends where you are, why you want or when you take those chances.

He would dream about these things every night before he gets sleep. He would choose one of these options and dig deep. He would relish every moment of being something/someone else. Things would never go wrong. Every detail is picture perfect. After all it's imagination, his imagination, why would he think of something that's not good anyway. It's his imagination, you see. Not reality.

It's been quite some time since he realized that if there is something that's holding him back from actually taking these options, it's none but himself. And he is ashamed of that. Excuses you see, we can make up lots of them. Just to defend ourselves from the dark world of guiltiness.

Well, it's world of rules and regulation, he just plays by all the rules. Mostly.

"What's stopping me anyway?" he asks himself.
"Stopping from what?"
"You know, making an attempt to see beyond the four walls that I've created. To see if there is an Unicorn actually, to see if there are still dragons ..."

He knows that doesn't want to know. He just comes up with reasons not to try. It's a bloody battle inside him that he can't win once in a while. It's been long time since he labeled himself as failure. Just pretends that he doesn't know it.

"Well, I'm waiting". He shouted. See, nobody likes fingers pointing at them.

"Waiting for what?"

"Things to change, to find a sign or something, anything. Anything that makes me sure that whatever I am doing has some purpose, not just another episode of any reality TV show."

"Well, you are just a snook, shameless that is."

What a pity

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Go Russia, Go!!

Well, there is a proverb in Kannada used often in my native place, it says "Gedda etthina bala hidi", means supporting the winning team!

That's exactly what I do when it comes to football.

Russia(the new favorites) defeated the Dutch(the old favorite).

Go Russia, Go!!!

Arshavin is the new Hero!

Monday, June 16, 2008

I watched a movie ...

that too in a theater. Wow.

So, the inevitable review should follow. I guess. So here it is ...

My first attempt in a Movie review :P Don't say I didn't warn you :)

The happening:
My Rating for the movie: 6 out of 10.

Well, Mr. Night Shyamalan's latest adventure. And the only movie I watched on the first day if it's release! Sheesh!!

Did I like the movie?
Yes, I did.

Do I ever want to watch it again?
No, I don't.

That ends my review.

Thank you.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Tuesday, May 06, 2008


Don't stay longer than you are expected to.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

It's a ...

Disaster in the making ...


The Disaster ...

Sigh ...

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

When Some Gods want to take walk ...

People have to clean the road with tanks of water, to wash away the mere mortal's foot prints ...

People have to stop the rush hour traffic on a busiest road to let the god take a walk ... 

If this seems like common, you are here for too long I guess :)

Can't Talk much about these god things, I might get incinerated by the lightning strikes ...

Heh ..

Monday, March 31, 2008

Thoughts on another sleepless night ..

I am not religious.
I do not believe in religions.

I am not spiritual.
I do not believe in soul.

I do not believe in god.
I deny the existence of god.

BUT, I am all for living with ethics, ethics which tell me how to live with out disturbing other living beings.

I think it's perfectly possible to live with out believing in a system of religions/gods AND have ethics to lead one's life. I DO NOT need a fear of eternal pain full life in hell, to live without causing much pain to my surrounding Eco system.

I think that the god/religions/spirits are few of the biggest jokes ever told.

It's all in the mind. Mind of a intricate system that makes a human.

I think human mind is the most complex system that the nature has built. It simply evolves with it's surroundings. Mind incorporates what it sees, hears, feels. As the time moves it molds according to the experience it had. That's why we see so many different views, arguments, opinions. NONE of them are wrong. Deep down inside those views are from the mind which believes what it has seen / heard/ felt so far and the conclusions it has drawn from those experiences.

The biggest problem with the mind is it's not ready to look at the world with a point of view other than it's own.

Once a mind is able to see the world with a view other than it's own, it's a beginning of a disaster, the whole belief system which it has built, crumbles down. There will be arguments, reasonings within the mind to reach a conclusion, to find an equilibrium.

To look at things with more than one point of view, one should understand who they are, what is the significance of their existence in the whole universe. But the time a person can figure out these, if at all, most of the time it will be too late. There will be already a alternate universe they had learnt. To unlearn this alternate world they are living in so far, takes quite an effort. It's not easy. There will be confusions, disbelief and resistance.

There can be mistakes, there will be mistakes. It's a constant learning effort to find what is truth. The line between truth and lie, correct and incorrect,right and wrong is a faded one. And it's very subjective.

When I found out that I am nothing but an animal living in a tiny planet that revolves around a mid-sized star, which intern is a part of a collection of billions of such stars, it was tough to understand it. And there are billions of other such collections. Heck, it was the time for suicide. The realization of a truth that I am not any special being but just another creature was very very depressing.

But then, then came another point of realization. Realization that I can take my life at any time I wanted. I HAVE the control on my death if I wanted. Isn't that comforting? That was the time I realised I can do some things that can make me feel special, special in my own way, that I don't have to explain it to others. I think it differs person to person what makes them feel special. For me, spending a day without feeling that I am just another tiny, insignificant creature is special.

But all these arguments can be very wrong. It's just my way of looking at the things. An understanding that lets me believe that this life is worth living another day and so on ... I very well understand that on a moment of helplessness, despair and powerlessness I might throw away all my beliefs, just to get some help. Heck, I might contradict myself in this very blog. It all depends, depends on the situations I might go through, experiences I will encounter. To hold on to my current views it needs a strong belief, understanding.

Not sure if I am there yet.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Well ...

Between the countless number of iisresets and waiting for server cache to load up, I managed to do nothing. In fact, that's exactly what I am doing right now. Waiting for that damned server cache. On a Sunday.

No fun.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Near perfect ...

way to disturb the peace of mind: Watch "Apocalypto" till late night, then listen to "My Dying Bride" and "Anathema" endlessly in a loop...
If that doesn't work, watch some other movie in the similar lines ...

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Why ...

there is no "restart" button? why why why ? That must be a missing requirement. Or may be the developer missed it, or somebody thought everything will go smooth.
I don't know, but I just need that goddamn button. But I know, I ain't gonna get it.

Friday, January 25, 2008

What's Up MAC!!!

MacBookPro !!!

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Materialistic ...

The Problem with the $money$ is, it's nice to keep it, but too hard to give away, especially if whatever in return you get is not tangible ...

Friday, January 18, 2008

Being Happy ...

is easy, just find a convenient definition of "happy" ...

Monday, January 14, 2008

"When I was/am/have/will/ etc etc ... "

Have you paid some attention to people when there a group of them talking/chatting ??

Most of the sentences start with something like

"when I ..."
"Once I was ..."
"I had ..."
"I will ..."

It's all about "I", "Me" and "Myself"

They just seem not to get bored with themselves !

I wonder why. Well, it has to be, methinks.

When it reaches a point, I just pretend like I got a call, mutter something like 'sorry ...', try my best to walk away :)
That's one of the reasons I like the cellphone :)

PS: I tried my best to not to mention "I" in the post, it seems there is no better joy other than talking about myself. He He ... :D

Thursday, January 10, 2008

I am so ...

tired right now, I don't even feel tired anymore ...

He he he, I just read what I typed, feel like a jackass :-)